Growing?
Sunday, January 25, 2009
1:05 AM
Growing up is painful.You’re on the cusp of finding yourself.
But the world is that huge, and you have no idea where to start looking.
Sometimes you lose yourself, in the bid to be someone else.
And sometimes you find bits of who you are, in the people around you.
Everyone grows up wanting to be like someone.
It could be people you know: your parents, friends, siblings.
Could be people you admire: celebrities, idols.
But on the way to finding ourselves, we try to be somebody we’re not.
We try to fit in, try to blend, try to hide.
We can’t do anything different because we’re afraid of being an outcast.
We don’t try anything new because we’re afraid of being alone.
But what we don’t realize is that, we need to be ourselves.
Because living a life that’s not you, it’s hard.
I used to always want to be someone else. I still do, you know. I wish I was tall, thin, beautiful and talented.
I’m willing to exchange my privacy for fame; slave through hours of training to perform on stage.
But every jewel must come from some sort of precious stone.
If you’re just a rock, no matter how much you grind and polish, you’ll still just be a rock.
I’ve told myself that I’ve come to terms with being who I am, but I can tell you honestly, I haven’t.
It might take me forever to realize that my dreams are too far-fetched.
I thought about it the other day, and finally realized, that I had no idea what I want to do in the future.
That thought scares me.
Because all of a sudden, all the dreams and hopes I had been holding on to, just didn’t seem to be real.
Like the clouds I had been clinging on to just disappeared and I’m just free-falling back to Earth.
I feel lost.
I still have a long way to go.
A lot more to grow.
That’s what life’s about right? Growing?
Well then, I’m scared of life.
I’m scared because I don’t know in which direction I’m growing.
I should start a wordpress.
K-LOVE
notsoSUNNILY and one of these days when i go berserk,
you better hope that i don't have a knife with me.